Friday, May 20, 2011

Day 105: Stars&Dinosaurs&AsianBrides&NEW GOALS

I'm getting close to being 1/3 of the way into this project. I'm pretty damned happy with my progress. Even if I'm only really progressing in one area. LOL. But fashion design was the goal that was most important to me sooooo, no complaints here!

Saturday, May 7, 2011

Accomplishments & A short love letter to the Internet

My mood in a gif:

 I don't know if words can do justice to how I'm feeling right now, but I am positively GIDDY with excitement. In case you don't know, Pink Lightning is my DREAM. It is my baby, Pink Lightning is my little clothing business. I have a website up and an Etsy. These things are positively meaningless. I've had a website before, and I've had an etsy account for ages. But you wanna know what is positively thrilling?! What makes this week different than last week? I now have customers! Squee! There are three people out there in the universe that like my sewing skills enough to have me make something for them. Ok, granted all three of those people are people I know personally (two are coworkers and the third is a close friend), but a girl has to start somewhere right?
Anywho, this is just the start. I want to get way more pieces on to the site and then I'm going to start marketing like a maniac. I'm hysterically excited, but I also have this weird panicky feeling in my chest. A tiny voice saying: 
"This is too risky. This is a waste of time. You'll look like a fool when you fail." 
I know that tiny voice is an idiot, but now and then that tiny voice has me quivering in my scuffed up combat boots.  So many times in the past I have given in to that little voice. It's held me back for so many years. But over the past year I have managed to find the confidence in myself and in my work to defeat it. But you know what helps so much? Knowing that my friends believe in me and want to see me succeed. And not just my “IRL” friends either. I use "IRL" for lack of a better term. Anyone reading this is as much of an in real life friend as anyone I've ever met in person. All you cool cats and kittens in the blogosphere, on tumblr, on facebook who have complimented the stuff I have made, you have no clue how much that makes my day. You don't know how many times I've wanted to give in and just let life lead me where it may, but a small off hand comment like "That's cute" or "Cool!" can turn things around for me. I've discovered the art of having confidence in myself, but sometimes I fall short. But you guys... *sniffle* you guys always bring me back to the top.
I don't have many vices, but the internet is definitely one of them. I certainly check my email too many times a day, and I've spent many an evening glued to Tumblr. But the internet has done for me something that no other vice could, it has connected me to some of the best people in the world. I know there are so many more of you out there, and I can't wait to meet you!

Tuesday, May 3, 2011

Channeling the Dark Queen

Here we have the thorned crown of the Fairy Queen of the Unseelie Court. Some say she's not evil, but merely misunderstood. Most beg to differ. Her servants just beg for mercy.

I made this headband for the fairytale punk clothing collection I'm working on. 

I'm so in love with it!

Sunday, May 1, 2011

Dreams Can Come True

So, I have this best friend. He's kind of a rockstar.

Or rapstar technically. I’ve known Mo for some years now, and one thing that he’s always been is dedicated to his dream. Which is tough, ‘cause when it’s your senior year of high school and people ask you what your plans are “I’m gonna be a rapper” is not what they want to hear. But he politely said fuck you to the naysayers and stayed on his grind. He knew that whether it took him to the top or the gutter, he had to do what he loved. And what he loved more than anything else was making music.

Now, his group Jupiter Express has performed in front of Def Jam and on 106 & Park. And this is only the beginning. I’m so happy for him that I could cry. But that would be insanely girly of me so I won’t.

He doesn’t take me seriously when I tell him this, but Mo is absolutely one of my biggest role models. He has a dream and he works relentlessly towards making it come true. Which is not something that I could always say about myself. But that changes now. I’ve always dreamed of being a fashion designer and eventually owning my own boutique. NOW is the time that I start to make that happen. I’m working on the website for my clothing line.  Every moment that I’m not at my “dayjob” I’ll be working, creating, and promoting my line until I’m the best and everyone knows it

Thank you Maurice for showing me that dreams can come true. But it takes more than wishing on stars, it takes hard work, dedication, and surviving on nothing but Ramen noodles for long periods of time.